Monday, 2 December 2013

Alone in a Crowd

Lets face the facts, one of the best feelings in the world is finding a true and loving friend. A best friend who can lift you up on your darkest days or make you feel special. Its something even a introvert like myself wishes for. All I truly want is a friendship where I don't feel like I'm the only one putting in the effort. I've addressed bad friendship on several occasions but I know I am yet to see that phase of my life over with.

There are days when the idea of having a good friend whom I can trust and be assured that they wont leave seems impossible. I sit around not able to imagine someone caring enough about me to let me feel safe. I always feel like one day they'll up and walk away and I'll be alone again. People who I confide in often leave me and I have major issues with allowing people in because of it.

I do try to be nice to everyone in the hopes that one day someone will prove me wrong and show me that there are people out there who care enough to hold on. I'm not the easiest person to get along with, I'm quiet, sarcastic, awfully rude sometimes and too stuck in my own world but I know I can't be the only one who is like that. I'm always trying to find a positive twist on everything and I'm a genuinely nice girl but I tend to shut people out. I just feel that I need someone to want to break down my walls. I need someone who cares enough to try with me. I need a friend who will never give up on me because I will never give up on them.

I have all this love to give but no one to give it to. I have friends but I don't have true friends. I know when I leave school at least 90% of them will never speak to me again. I'm not much of a people's person so it will be okay but I know I still want them to. Maybe I need to change but what kind of friend would I have if I only got them because of a false exterior. I need someone to take me as I am right now and grow with me.

I feel so alone in a world full of all kinds of people. I'm alone in a crowd.


Here's one of my favourite songs at the moment, I feel like it embodies exactly how I'm feeling.


Thursday, 14 November 2013

Photo Diary

I recently did a video montage on my YouTube channel and I decided to do a little photo diary of all the pictures I took! Hope you enjoy it :)

Xoxo






















Okay so maybe it was a little more than just a little photo diary but I hope you enjoyed it. Check out the video montage here!

Love you all lots

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Tuesday, 15 October 2013

Exam Time!

So, I haven't posted a new blog, video, haven't checked any of my emails or even been on tumblr in such a long time. There is a simple explanation for this: I start exams next week! This month has been such a rush to finish everything on time, add in boy drama, friends, an obsession with wattpad as well as school monitor duties. With all this going on I barely have space to breathe.

This is really just a filler post so that you know that I'm not leaving again for another two months. I'm still here and I want to thank everyone for their support. Your comments mean the world to me because it keeps me going.

If you're also writing, good luck and study hard.

Xoxo

PS: Here's a random picture of me, just in case you end up missing me too much :p

Monday, 30 September 2013

Bad Friends #2 [Motivational Monday!]

I noticed the other day that my most successful blog post to date is Bad Friends. It really inspired a lot of people to do something about the bad friendships in their lives. If you haven't read it click here. Its really heartwarming and I felt that you deserve to know whether or not I fulfilled the promises I made in the post.

The answer is yes. It took me a long time and its not been an easy journey but I finally changed my friends and I do not regret it at all. Its tough at first but now I'm happy with my life and I finally feel ready to move on.


Lets start from the beginning. When I wrote the post I knew that I wanted to change my friends but I was also not close enough to other groups that I could just join them without a worry, so I spent many months creating new bonds with as many people as I could. I'm now close to several other people and I'm no longer alone.


I joined a group of people in August who were close with one of my best friends who had also left the group but while she was happy there, I was not. I just didn't fit in as well as her so I moved on and near the end of September I joined a new group. These friends were much better suited for me and we get along great.



I'm also growing close to my old friends, now that I don't spend so much time with them, I realise that they are tolerable and I'm better able to communicate with them. I'm glad that I didn't lose my old friends when gaining my new ones and that I can finally say that I'm at peace with myself.

I hope that this motivates you if you're stuck in a bad, negative friendship or relationship and you realise that even if it takes some time, things will get better.



And if you ever need a friend, I'm here for you :) internet friends are awesome! I'll always be there for anyone who needs me because I know how it feels to have no one.

Also Union J has a great song "Beautiful Life" which is super inspiring...plus it has cute boys so there's another plus. It speaks about how there are so many beautiful things in life and you just have to discover them.


There you go! A great Motivational Monday post.
xoxo

Sunday, 29 September 2013

Family Pressure

So I've noticed something and I felt that it was imperative for me to share it with you. Peer pressure might be bad and all but what about pressure from those closest to us? Family. We have to deal with constant pressure, especially from our parents, as teens. As a 16 year old girl a lot of expectations are held over my head.

What is so bad about family pressure and why is it not addressed as much as peer pressure? Its quite simple...family pressure isn't considered as much of a bad thing as peer pressure because it usually involves a positive outcome. We get pressurised by family to become what they want us to be, and that is good, wholesome, top-achieving members of society. That is, of course, unless your parents are grooming you to become a drug dealer.




Unfortunately, family pressure does affect teens negatively. Depression, suicide, cutting...all these could be caused by the constant nagging from parents for their children to become successes in life. Its not a bad thing to want that for your child but there is a limit. You can send your child to every class available for dance, but if your child is uninterested, or simply cannot dance, you cannot, or should not, force your child to continue on a downward spiral of nothing.



We sit around with millions of dreams as we grow up. I have many dreams that I wish to accomplish but I also realise that had it been my parents idea, I wouldn't be as interested. This is because we want different things and I want to be able to have my own dreams. I refuse to be held back by my parents interpretations and that is why I have my own set of dreams. Yes, going to university in two years time is a good goal from my parents, but it should be down to me whether or not I actually go and where I will go.

Our parents do want so much for us, but sometimes its just not our vision of our future. I grew up to be independent, to pave my own path, and let no one tell me what I can and cannot do. I also needed to know when I need help and where to ask. That isn't pressure but when they have a goal that is forced upon you, like my dad's deep need for me to go into IT, its not okay. I know my dad will be happy either way, but what if he had been insistent? I would have died! I cant handle the thought of someone else controlling my future.



While I may have academic freedom, I will admit that I have been pressured in other aspects. Religion, for instance. I live in a rigid Christian home and was baptised into the church earlier this year. Unfortunately, I sometimes feel forced. I sit around doubting my beliefs on a daily basis but I'm too afraid to admit that to my parents. I didn't even want to be baptised but the pressure from them was too great and I caved in and got baptised. I regret it still, and I always will.

I feel that had I been allowed to wait till I felt ready, maybe my baptism would have meant more to me, but because of my parents, I'm a baptised Christian with little faith and a hell of a problem. I didn't even feel excited to be baptised and it meant little to nothing to me. I get so sad just thinking about it.


The point of this blog post was just to finally let out how I feel about this. Family pressure is a very important topic to me and I feel that I needed to express myself. I hope I didn't depress you too much :)

Till next time
xoxo

Monday, 23 September 2013

Daydreamin/ Lightweight/ Carry You/ Grenade- MASHUP (Cover)



YouTube is exhausting! After a long day of filming and editing, I'm finally glad to show you this brand new video! Its pretty good too. Its a mashup of Daydreamin (by Ariana Grande), Lightweight (By demi Lovato), Carry you (By Union J) and Grenade by Bruno Mars. Please watch it and share with your friends, family, dogs, cats, horses, and the local hobos!

XOXO

Saturday, 21 September 2013

Social Media!

You have absolutely no idea how bad I felt after being gone for months from the blogging world! So to make up for it I thought it was only fair to start blogging daily! I thought that especially now with the year starting to end and everything winding down a little, I would have more time for this. Plus it might help with my massive YouTube addiction. Then again, I might not keep this promise so don't even listen to me

I've updated my social media so be sure to follow me:

Twitter:

I have two twitter accounts..

https://twitter.com/stinodaniels

AND

https://twitter.com/Justine_Daniels

Tumblr:

I have a brand spanking new tumblr so it'll be great if you'd follow me

justinedaniels.tumblr.com

YouTube:

My sister and I started a YouTube channel. We do covers and stuff and its really a lot of fun. Check us out :)

Our YouTube channel

Thank you. Much love

xoxo

Friday, 20 September 2013

What Love Means To Me

Hello Blogosphere!

After a long void of emptiness and nothingness, I thought it was time to make my comeback! And what better comeback than the perfect love story! No, not that kind of love story :p. I'm talking about a love story that will never end in tears and possible heartache. A love to span decades and fill the world with a new sense of joy. I'm talking about family. I know you might be rolling your eyes right now but the fact is, with a family like mine, its hard not to fall deeply in love with the idea of a true love.

Love is defined in the Oxford Dictionary as a great liking or affection but that isn't even close to the truth. Love is a passionate feeling, a heart-warming, overpowering, life changing emotion... In fact not even an emotion! More like a way of life. That's how powerful love is! It has the power to literally take over your life, fill up all the empty spaces of your life and create a joy like no other.


Love is such a vast subject and I don't have enough time to describe every love so I'll describe a love that I've known all my life: family. I realise that many people aren't as fortunate as me in regards to family life so I definitely appreciate them a lot. The amount of time that my family has invested into my life has really helped shape me as a young girl growing up in this big scary world!

 
 
So lets start in the beginning, way before Moses and Adam and Eve. Wait, no, actually lets not go that far. Bad idea. I'll just start with my parents. They've been married for, like, eternity! Almost 20 years! That's a pretty good love story if you ask me. In December they will be married for 18 years. The story of how they met always makes me smile. And the engagement story, and the wedding day, and...well their marriage is just amazing and I'm proud of them for being such a good example.
 
I have many friends whose parents are divorced and my best friend once even told me that her parents' failed marriage has made her lose faith in the power of marriage. I think that I'm incredibly blessed. My grandparents, too, have been together for a long time, and all these amazing stories have given me a lot of hope for my future marriage. I can only hope others see them and realise that true love still exists.
 
 
 
Now, ladies and gentlemen, I will tell you about a love that took years to grow and manifest into what it is today. I am talking about the love between my sister and I. My sister is without a doubt one of my best friends and the one person I can always trust. I love her so much and wouldn't be doing most of the things that I'm doing today if it wasn't for her. She is such an inspiration to me and is like a stronghold during those really tough times in my life.
 
Considering the four year age gap it is quite strange that we get on so well but somehow we make it work. She's such an amazing person and I could write a billion chapters on how magnificent and crazy she is, but there wouldn't be enough time and I'd probably fail school if I did. Moving on, despite our close bond today, there was a time when we absolutely detested each other and whenever one of us tried to get close, the other would promptly kick the sister out of their room. That was without a doubt one of the worst stages we ever had.
 
Living with a younger sister certainly hasn't been easy but now that I'm growing up and learning about appreciation, and her growing up and learning to not be an annoying person (sorry Shirelle), we are ready to go forward with our sisterly love. And just because I can, I will now post many, many pictures of us- the worlds best sisters!
 








 

 
I should maybe talk about my cat now, shouldn't I? Okay, my cat is an ordinary house cat who's too lazy to do anything and lies around being fat. Not a pleasant description, I know, but its honest. I can't say I love my cat to infinity but I can say that I do love him. I've had him for about 2 years after our old cat, Shannon gave birth. My mom sent Shannon and most of her little babies to an animal shelter, FORA. They do not kill animals so I'm sure that even if they didn't find homes, they're happy where they are. Another cat, also one of Shannon's little kittens lives with our cousin nearby. We actually kept two of the kittens, Kitty (our cat right now, wow, points for originality) and another sibling who died after being in a horrible accident. :( Its really sad to think about it.
 
On a brighter note, I have recently started a  YouTube channel with my sister. Please be sure to check it out. Thank you for reading, I love you all.
 
xoxo
 
 


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LexdeFRFgyM (it wont open on the page, sorry, please open the link) 
 
 





Sunday, 15 September 2013

Song Covers/ Lyrics Challenge



Sooo recently my sister and I decided to do youtube videos!

Please check it out. a new video will be up soon.

xoxo

PS: Sorry for not posting in forever! I just never have the inspiration :(. Hopefully I'll be re-inspired soon so wish me luck.

Wednesday, 12 June 2013

Guess who is back?

Yes, its true! I'm back again! And I'm ready to get blogging. Exams are currently in progress but I'm taking a break and sitting here in front of my laptop and a cup of tea, ready to indulge in some stimulating conversation!

I can't write too much because, quite frankly, I'm exhausted! I wrote two essay papers today and I also decided to start writing a story on wattpad. Yes, I'm very smart, I know I am. *sigh*

While I was away from the blogosphere I thought to myself: " I still tweet occasionally and do other social networking things so why not let the fabulous people who read my blog read more than just my blog?"

So, I have compiled a list of places to find me at! Here goes:

Tumblr:
 http://stinoheartsfashion.tumblr.com/

Twitter:
@Justine_Daniels

And please check out my story on Wattpad:
http://www.wattpad.com/story/6214287-not-so-cliché

I know its not a lot, but its the ones I use most. Thank you for being so patient!

xx


Wednesday, 8 May 2013

School is Hectic!

Just a short update to let you know why I haven't, and wont be posting for a while. So, as you can tell from the title, school has been pretty hectic right now, and will probably be hectic for a few more weeks.

We have so many tests, assignments and tasks, as well as the impending exams. Can someone say STRESS!? I really wont post much because of that but I hope you all understand.

Here's a cute picture to make up for the next few weeks:


There you go! Bet you forgave me immediately right? Yes, I knew you would!

xoxo
 

Tuesday, 30 April 2013

Snickerdoodle Recipe

First off, I apologize for taking so long with this post, but school has been particularly hectic right now, with assignment after assignment, and tasks, and tests, and sleepless nights. I probably wont post often and I sincerely apologize in advance.

Between all the school work, I decided to bake! I made a scrumptious batch of snickerdoodles and they came out perfectly! I did finish the butter though... But everyone enjoyed the biscuits so much! I will definitely be making it again soon.

Today I wanted scones so, of course, I will be making them. Yay!

For now I will leave you with the recipe for my snickerdoodles:

Martha Stewart’s Snickerdoodles

makes about 1 1/2 dozen (I made more than that, almost 2 dozen)

2 3/4 cups all-purpose flour
2 tsp baking powder
1/2 tsp coarse salt
1 cups (2 sticks) unsalted butter, room temperature
1 1/2 cups sugar
2 large eggs
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2 tbsp sugar
2 tsp ground cinnamon


Preheat oven to 350F(180C). Sift together flour, baking powder and salt into a bowl. Put butter and 1 1/2 cups sugar in the bowl of an electric mixer fitted with the paddle attachment. Mix on medium speed until pale and fluffy (about 3 minutes) I didn't check how long it took for me but that's approximately. Mix in eggs. Reduce speed to low; gradually mix in flour mixture.

Stir together cinnamon and remaining 2 tablespoons sugar in a small bowl. Shape dough into 20 (1 3/4-inch) balls; roll in cinnamon sugar. Flatten the balls slightly, so that they look like axtual biscuits. Space 3 inches apart on baking sheets( I didn't have baking sheets so I just used oil, its the same thing, just baking paper is healthier. Its your cookies, do as you please!)

Bake cookies until edges are golden, 12 to 15 minutes. Let cool on sheets on wire racks.

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See? So easy! And its so tasty. A definite must-try recipe.

xoxo

Sunday, 21 April 2013

Tumblr Fix of the week #2

Its that time of the week again when I give you a selection of my favourite tumblr pics! I know you're excited, don't look at me like that, you know you are! So without further a do, here is your tumblr fix of the week!! :D



Taylorrrrrr Swift!! #IAmASwiftie

Isn't this so cute? Adorable!


Just...perfect <3





This looks like the kind of thing I'd do with my best friend.



I just love this picture! Don't you?

 
So there it is! I hope you liked it. There was quite a lot to show. Enjoy your week!
 

Xoxo