Bad Friends

Lately I've noticed that I wake up, go to school, go home and feel exactly the same. I don't feel extremely jolly or excited or ambitious when I'm around certain people. I sat down today with my best friend and the reason for my emotional draining became obvious. I was surrounding myself with morons! Okay, maybe not morons, but the friends I have aren't exactly the best.

I noticed that the reason why I get along so well with my best friend is because I don't feel the need to pretend around her. The friends I have, have no ambition, goals, dreams, and are just a waste of my time. I cant get excited about doing something that will further my future career or help me in life because I know my friends don't feel that its necessary to care about it.

Now, don't get me wrong, I know its perfectly fine not to know what you want to be when you grow up but not to even care, is dangerous. We finish school next year! Why don't we try to work for something? I think the problem is that my friends are too lazy. I hate to admit it, and they will murder me if they knew how I felt, but its true.

 

I have this dream, a crazy dream that I can only blame on watching too much Monte Carlo, that I want to go to Paris with a friend when I graduate. That doesn't seem very likely unless I manage to find good friends by the end of next year. My best friend is two grades below me, and the friends I have in this grade are unambitious. I need new friends.

I seriously, desperately want to go to Paris, I want to study overseas(any good universities I should consider? Let me know), travel the world, and have an amazing life. I also want to experience these things with like-minded people. Why couldn't God throw some ambitious people into my life? Please?

There was a reason why I told you that, it was because it taught me an important lesson, positive people create a positive atmosphere, which means positive thoughts. I surround myself with negative people so I feel down and unexcited to the adventures of life. If I start surrounding myself with positive people then maybe I can get back my spirit and zest for life. I cant sit and be sad all the time because of my surroundings.

Take my experience and incorporate it into your life, its way too short to spend with a dark cloud of insecurities that bad friends are bringing along. Surround yourself with positive, like-minded people who will support you and not mock or laugh at your goals or dreams just because they don't want to achieve it. Those people will just bring you down and make you feel bad about yourself. Take control of your own life!

Hopefully I can follow my own advice and start separating myself from the negativity. I would rather have no, or one, friend who is there for me, than a group full of lazy, unambitious people who have no interest in their future. Its time to clean up my life.

 

 

Thank you for reading my more depressing blog post. I hope somewhere out there, someone is reading this and knows that they aren't the only ones feeling like that and they get the courage to speak up for themselves and clean up their lives, and that I can do the same.

 

Xoxo