Happy New Years! [Tumblr Fix #1]

So today I realised that, as I sit here in the very, very early hours of the fourth day of the year, I am wasting my time. I have 365 days this year and 3 of them were wasted watching supernatural (not really wasting...right?) and using tumblr or watching tv or being overall a waste of time. I really need to strap on my boots (or sandals coz its summer here) and get livin'! Its not going to be easy, I mean I suck at the outside world but its time to get out there and live a little! I need to step outside of my comfort zone and do something that will make 2014 memorable.

I was reflecting on 2013 and I seriously think that this blog and my youtube channel were the only things I did that actually matter. I wasted an entire year going through a lot of crap and I need to get myself sorted out. I refuse to spend yet another year angry at fake friends, annoying family and wondering what the hell to do with my life. I also have to get over the idea that i need a boyfriend to be happy. I would very much prefer one but I wasted too much time being upset about it. I almost relapsed back into depression this year because of it. This year I need to become happy again, not the fake happy that I tend to be way too often but genuinely happy. I need to learn to love myself instead of wanting love from others. It wont be easy.

From tomorrow until the end of January I plan on posting a blog as well as a vlog daily. I refuse to let this year go to waste and I need to get motivated. a new year gives you a chance to sort out your life with a valid excuse. Its time to take control of my own destiny.

This year is my final year of school and I cant sit around for another year doing a big fat load of nothing again. It's my last year and my last chance, after this I move on to other places and new people so I want to leave everyone knowing I made an impact on their lives. I tend to give up too easily but this year it'll be different.

The thing that will make this year different is that this year it will be all about me. I'm done with being upset over other peoples perceptions of me. i just keep thinking that this time next year I wont care what they think so why should I care now. Only 11 more months with them then I'm out, out of the pain and guilt and worry and into my new life. If I wont care then, why should I care now? This year is my year, no one else's and no one will get me down. Not this year.

2014, come at me bro!

Also I really liked doing tumblr fix last year so I think I'll do it again. Maybe once a month?
Tumblr pics of new years 2014:
JANUARY!!!

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xx

PS: How are we already in 2014? I haven,t even gotten over Christmas yet?